Chapter 42 Purchasing Property - from my book Changes

Chapter 42

Purchasing Property

This land I spoke of, where I protected a  couple of quests, was something my husband and I purchased in 2007, a couple years after I started Trackerschool.

I wanted a place where I could practice primitive living; a place that was mine; and a place where I could retreat to if I decided to leave my marriage (though I didn’t mention that last reason to my husband).

There were many times I wanted to run away from home, but I always had something holding me back, telling me to wait.

Once we purchased the property, I felt like I could let go of my marriage, and how everything unfolded from then on was very surprising.

Right after we bought the land, my extended family, along with my husband and I and the kids, went camping in the meadow by the little creek.  It was a family time and I was enjoying relaxing with everyone as dinners were cooking on campfires.

About then, when I was having fun with family, my husband wanted me to go for a walk with him.  I told him I wanted to stay in the meadow where we were all having fun.  We could go for a walk another time.  I didn’t want to miss out on this reunion of family, after all, we seldom came to Oregon from where we lived in Florida.

My husband got mad because I wouldn’t go for a walk with him.  He stormed off to go for a walk by himself.

Before that weekend, I would have gone with him.  I would have done what I could to appease him and keep him happy.  But in my mind, now that I felt I had been giving permission by some higher power to let go, I had determined that I would no longer run around licking his boots in an effort to keep him happy.  I would live my life like a normal person who could relax and be happy.  I was finally ready to risk the consequences.

I remember, as he walked away, feeling a gleeful excitement about the possibility of him being eaten by a cougar!  I knew there were cougars in these hills. That thought really solidified in my mind that there was something really wrong with our relationship.

I felt shaky after he walked into the woods, so I went and hung out with my wonderful family for the evening.

That’s all I can write for now - makes me feel shaky just writing about it, even after all these years have gone by.  More in the next chapter.